I am so hesitant to write this blog. It has been in my thoughts for a while now but haven’t been able to come out with the exact words that could convey this properly. So I’m just going to say it.
I am happy.
It’s out there now, it’s typed out so no going back right? I guess my fear is that no one really believes that anyone can be completely happy and content with where their life is, but I am.
Like everyone else, I have my issues, plenty of them. Things I have to deal with on a daily basis. My husband drives me nuts, he plays on his phone way too much, chews his gum too loud and never turns off a light. My children will not pick up after themselves, they throw tantrums over the dumbest things and I always have to yell in order to get them to listen. I have anxiety about everything, I stress about the bills and hate housework, but I am happy.
I have climbed mountains and swam oceans to get where I am today. Friends have come and gone. Family has shown their colors when needed most and God has been with me through it all serving as my compass.
There was not a moment that I just suddenly felt happy. It was a collective of events that brought on this realization. Even with the annoyance of some aspects of life occurring around me, I see that my life is complete. I cannot say my life is miserable because my children don’t sleep in till 10 a.m. Or because my husband takes weeks and months sometimes to do one item on my honey do list. What I can say is, everyone and everything that means something to me, is good.
I have an incredibly handsome, kind, funny, loyal husband that gives me the best of himself. My children are smart, adorable and spunky. I live in a home that has love dripping from the walls in the form of crayon marks and cat scratches. My parents are so supportive in everything I do. I have a brother that would be there for me whenever I needed him. My best friend in the whole world, whom I also consider family, always puts wind in my sails when they are lacking.
Isn’t this what life’s about? How can I not be happy. I have a solid foundation, God in my heart and the right to choose happiness. I won’t let that happiness go, only grow within me and hopefully spread it to others. The negatives in my life will work themselves out so I won’t let them consume me.